Never Give Up

Never Give Up On Anything

Its Madness -
To hate all roses, because you got scratched by one thorn.
To give up all your dreams, because one did not come true.
To lose faith in prayers, because one was not answered.

To give up on your efforts, because one of them failed.
To condemn all your friends, because one of them betrayed.
Not to believe in love, because someone was unfaithful.

Remember that, another chance may come up.
A new friend, A new love, A new life.

Never give up on anything!

~Pravs J~

The Piano

My hubby's is a Pianist, let's say : Piano freak. Practicing piano filled his life, from childhood time until now.

Poor for us, we don't have that beautiful but very expensive thing inside our small flat. So my hubby only can play it at the time we go to my parents in law home at Bandung. There he will met his black buddy!

Then last week, we found a new store in Plaza Semanggi, name : "Buku Musik". Where it provides so many music books, lets say "Partiture" of classical until modern songs, and no wonder, He spent a long time inside that store.

Anyway, there is just OK if he decided to buy one of the partiture, but the problems is the partitures are all originally imported from US or Canada, and we have to pay the original price plus 20% of the total cost. can you imagine, none book costs less than IDR 150,000 ? what a expensive price for us now! ( not for the other people, I mean)

Then the second problems is, we couldn't have only one book to be bought. You know, if you were a pianist, you would be very interested in finding as many songs that you can. So due to this reason, my hubby finally decided not to buy even one, before spending hundreds thousand rupiah inside this luxury books store.

Next, after accidentally visited the store, my hubby now is missing his black mate. And as I can guess before, he is now searching for Yamaha Clavinnova rather than the upright piano as he has at his parents house because its price is cheaper and also contains more -lets say- music gadget as electronic keyboard or Electone has

By the way, I am also -lets say- an organist and a Piano lover . I am too dreaming about having our piano at home some day. But to be honest, we can't afford it this time. The cheapest price of it is around IDR 20 billion ( the old and already used one) and it really impossible for us to afford it at least this year. So honey, please be patience, you will have your best mate as soon as we could afford!

First Try

Well, this is gonna be my first post about Pregnancy...:D

Setelah satu tahun "bersantai" ria, akhirnya gw dan hubby "menggencarkan" program "baby" juga.. bukan apa-apa, As time goes by, keinginan untuk jadi mom and dad makin kuat aja buat kita, ngeliat hubby yang tadinya cuek jadi " sayang banget" ama ponakan2 juga udah kasi signal kalo He wants to be a dad beside the inside fact that I want to give birth of our son as soon, as I can

So kemarin, setelah " melakukannya" di masa subur gw, kita pun berharap-harap cemas akan kedatangan si bayi.. tiga minggu sesudahnya, gejala-gejala aneh muncul di gw. Mulai dari rasa lemas, cepet cape yang berkepanjangan, lapar yang sangat ( walopun emang udah rakus juga pada dasarnya..hehe) dan yang paling signifikan : Haid gw gak mampir sampai lewat 3 hari,

Nah, dengan semangat 45, hubby pun menyarankan agar gw ngintip pake test pack. Malah tadinya mau sekalian check darah aja ama papi mertua karna kita juga pas ada di Bandung. Tapi gw rasanya segan, takut kalo hasilnya negatif dan buat papi&mami mertua jadi kecewa, karna mereka, terutama papi udah suka nanya2 dan berharap kita secepatnya punya baby. So gw pun memilih untuk beli test pack setelah kita nyampe di Jakarta

Then, this morning, hubby yang biasanya masih molor pas gw bikin sarapan dan bekal, dengan semangat 45 bangun en nanya " yang udah pipis belum??" ok, karna gw belum pipis, doi pun menunggu dengan sabar, dan akhirnya setelah gw pipis, kita ngelihat hasilnya sama2 dengan perasaan harap-harap cemas, dan hasilnya pun menunjukkan strip merah 1 biji

Rasanya ga tega ngelihat hubby kecewa, bahkan setelah test packnya dibuang, doi maksain bongkar lagi tong sampah dapur untuk re-chek hasilnya..Tapi test packnya ga berubah, nothing changed.

Well, walaupun kita sedikit kecewa, tapi kita tau kalo Tuhan pasti kasih kita baby disaat yang paling tepat, so no reason for being sad, the Grace will come on the right time!!

Thank You God

I Thank God for putting us back together again, answering my prayer and bounding us in a holy marriage, after 5 years separated

I Thank God for my "first teen-age love" husband, who lives in a same and strong Christian family living- standard, which is based on our our faith and believes then being the basic foundation of our little family

I Thank God for my understanding husband, who knows all my weakness before we fell in love, and accepts them all without ever being complained and disappointed

Thanks God for my supporting husband, who knows my interest, desire in live and my "impossible" -alike dreams before we fell in love, so that he never stops giving me encourage and supports to reach all my dreams without ever being disappointed

Thanks God for my wise and positive-minded husband, who always being my neutral adviser, who always gives me the best ways out for every problems that occur in my live without ever consider about ego, own profit or self-pride

I do Thank God for the humble but firm husband who always be the important decision-maker in my life, who gives me the biggest influences with the humble opinion, ideas and thoughts which remind me to live as the Christian standards that we do believe

Thanks God for my " 24 hours" on-call husband, whom I do know that I can count my life on, whom I laid my head on, who always be the first place for me to run every time the sorrows turn my life into blue or when the happiness abide with me

Thanks God for my "full of love and caring" husband, who always treats me as the most beautiful and lucky woman in the world then make me feel more comfortable with my self without trying hard to be "The most beautiful woman in this universe" alike

I Thank God for my talented husband, who now is being my personal Accountant where he always concerns about our little family-earning, does the smart saving and effective calculations, prepare for our bright future without ever being forget to Thank God for his blessing

I Thank God for his talents in Music, which balance my life with his piano-play or being a music teacher for this kind of wife who totally blind about this matters

I Thank God for his Curious and "Google" a-like brain, who is always be the source of "information" for me, who always encourages me to learn more and more each day!

Thanks God for his special knowledge in Medicine, where he is always be my personal Doctor, who never stop listening to my pain, finding the medicine and taking care of me till I feel better. Thanks God also because he brings the new life healthy standard in my life, so that we could live healthy longer as God commanded us

Thanks God for his " Patience" side, where he always tries to cook and bake my favorite Food, even tough he has never done it before. It really a blessing for me to see him trying hard to make he happy with all of his awesome hand made food!

At least, I do thank God for every single best things that he has which I hasn't mentioned yet. I believe He is my best companion as God had planned before I realized. Thank you Lord, Thank you Father, with this Most Valuable Grace that I have ever had in my life!


Jakarta, May 5th 2010

Grace Manullang, Mrs

A Wife Prayer

Dear Lord,

Help me to be the kind of wife you want me to be.

Help me not to take my role as wife lightly or take my husband's love for granted.

Help me to be a good listener, giving my husband my full attention so that I will be well aware of his concerns, aspirations, and needs.

Help me to pay attention to the advice my husband gives me when he brings things to my attention that I may be doing wrong or that I could be doing better.

Help me to be more anxious to please my husband than to have my own way.

Help me to be aware of the things that I do that upset my dear husband - and enable me not to keep doing them - so that I will not be causing unnecessary problems in our relationship.

Help me to remember that I am commanded to submit to my husband's role as head of the house even if he fails to faithfully submit to the headship of Christ.

Help me to treat my husband better than when we were first met and remind me of the importance of spending quality time alone with him and of doing things to remind him of how special he is to me.

Help me not to jump to conclusions about my husband's motives and enable me to think the best of him at all times.

Help me to apologize and set things straight when I complain, falsely accuse, act selfishly, or say unkind or provoking words.

Help me to go out of my way to complement him and to encourage him.

Help me to be a proper example of what a loving, considerate, caring, and self-sacrificing wife should be.

Help me to realize that it is my job to be an example of a mature and godly wife and not an example of a disrespectful and selfish child.

Help me to be joyful in spite of my circumstances and help me to avoid whining and complaining when things do not go my way.

Help me to admit my faults, to apologize when I am wrong, and to be anxious to heal wounds that I may have caused in my relationship to my husband.

Help me to realize that is far better to get my husband to do things I want him to do because he loves me and not because I nag him.

Help me to never forget that You gave me my husband to be a helpmate and best friend and may I never think of him as an adversary or a hindrance.

Help me to show my children how much I respect and love their father by my actions and by the words out of my mouth.

Help me not to be afraid to be affectionate and loving towards my husband in front of my children so that they will know how to be good spouses when they grow up.

Help me to support my husband in the proper administration of discipline to our children so they are not a burden or a grief to my husband.

Help me to show my children that my husband is truly my very best friend and a highly trusted partner in the ministry of our family.

Make me the kind of wife who my husband will never regret having married and even more than that, make me the kind of wife who is a joy for my husband to be around and who my husband will be proud to call his wife, a woman who honors him and who honors Christ.

Amen.

At the Day

At the day, After I left school, I went to the bakery to grab the cake..I was so in love with the cake even tough the wrapping is not so small and I felt a little bit hard to bring it by using the public car..

Then, I cleaned the house, take a nap for a while (my bad habit!)

At 5.oo pm, I opened the fridge and found that I need an extra egg. So I went downstairs to get it.. but unfortunately, Instead of bringing the egg, i brought the bread!!

Consider it, I went back again (!)

After getting the egg, I boiled the pasta, prepared the food material, took a bath

At 6.30, my hubby went home and was so happy finding the cake!



After saying and giving" Happy Anniversary" kiss, we sang " Happy Anniversary" used the tune of " Happy Birthday" then continued with blowing the candle and cut the cake! horray

At least, dinner time with my Macaroni Omelet with extra cheese ( our favorite one ) hmm we were so happy! Thanks God!!



Anyway, before sleeping, we both whispered a simple hope : To have our son when we celebrate the anny next year!!!

Plan For The Anniversary

Anniversary Tickers

Tomorrow is our First Anniversary! yeah! I do want to make that day very special, and that is why I already prepared for a surprise for my beloved

on that day, I want to have a cake and candle. That was why I have already ordered it at one of the best bakery near our flat on last Thursday, I chose his favorite flavor, Black forest and ssst, I wanted to keep it secretly until he comes home on that day!

as time goes by, on last Saturday, we discussed about that "internal" celebration. My hubby wanted to bake my favorite food ( again!) : Vegetarian Mushroom Pizza!!! horraaY

But, I remembered about my preparation stuff for dinner: Black forest and also cheese macaroni omelet (our favorite also) and that's why I told him not to make the pizza on that day..then.. he was curious about it..how come I "refused" my that delicious food ( and he was right about it..hehe)

Flashback, actually when I was on the bakery to order the cake on Thursday, He called me by phone. When he asked me where I was, I told him I was inside the public car, but He didn't believe me because he heard no "road" sound..huff..OK, I told him i was inside the bakery and once again he was curious why I was there ( because I always get an headache every time i go back from the school due to the weather and the traffic) so that was an extraordinary things for him to see me going someplace directly after school time

Ok, I was success to make him believe me. I told him that I wanted to buy my favorite bread here. He believed in it, but i know, he was not totally believe in my reason ( because I am a lazy wive, can't go someplace without him by my side..hehe)

But It was not end, when we discussed about the dinner things, He asked me why I refused his willingness to cook for me, I said that I had something actually, and he kept asking me..and you know, it was hard for me not to tell the truth, because He really knew me, he got me hiding something ( based on my " unbelievable" moment at the bakery) and there I was, couldn't hide it anymore.. so He discovered that special and secret plan..huh

Then here we come, waiting for tomorrow "special dinner" to celebrate our first anniversary, waiting for the cake, waiting for my omelet, and most, waiting for more blessing to come.